Tribute to the Person I Love Most in the World
Birdsong. The tranquil sound carries through to me through the window and I’m drawn from the few moments of sleep I’ve managed to capture. My chest heaves and as it does I realise that the weight from before is gone. The panicked thought that he might be gone with it tears my tired eyes open, but I don’t move. I listen. I hear the clock ticking in the corner, ticking away seconds of my life that I know I’ll never be able to get back, but I don’t care. I hear the cat, grooming her own grey fur, her curved, polished talons clicking softly against the oak chest of drawers pressed up against the wall by the door. And finally, blessedly, I hear the sound I’ve been listening for since I awoke; breathing that isn’t my own, steady and gentle in sleep’s soft arms. I can feel his rhythmic breaths against the top of my head, ruffling my long dark hair as my eyes adjust to the large dark room. I roll over, allowing the bed sheets to brush against my bare torso with the movement, so that I can look into his sleeping face, cradled in a hazy embrace far more deep and peaceful than anything my ever-active mind can ever conjure. I raise my hand in order to stroke his tanned cheek and as I do so I feel the love and joy rise in my heart so much that it aches. Love and joy that he should find it in his delicate heart to love me for all my flaws, to remain by my side for all my antics and childish outbursts. To stand by me through the storms and to hold me through the pain. As I lower my head to kiss his warm cheek I think how lucky I am to call him mine. My lover, my beacon of hope, my fragile flower, my salvation.
My Panda.
Birdsong. The tranquil sound carries through to me through the window and I’m drawn from the few moments of sleep I’ve managed to capture. My chest heaves and as it does I realise that the weight from before is gone. The panicked thought that he might be gone with it tears my tired eyes open, but I don’t move. I listen. I hear the clock ticking in the corner, ticking away seconds of my life that I know I’ll never be able to get back, but I don’t care. I hear the cat, grooming her own grey fur, her curved, polished talons clicking softly against the oak chest of drawers pressed up against the wall by the door. And finally, blessedly, I hear the sound I’ve been listening for since I awoke; breathing that isn’t my own, steady and gentle in sleep’s soft arms. I can feel his rhythmic breaths against the top of my head, ruffling my long dark hair as my eyes adjust to the large dark room. I roll over, allowing the bed sheets to brush against my bare torso with the movement, so that I can look into his sleeping face, cradled in a hazy embrace far more deep and peaceful than anything my ever-active mind can ever conjure. I raise my hand in order to stroke his tanned cheek and as I do so I feel the love and joy rise in my heart so much that it aches. Love and joy that he should find it in his delicate heart to love me for all my flaws, to remain by my side for all my antics and childish outbursts. To stand by me through the storms and to hold me through the pain. As I lower my head to kiss his warm cheek I think how lucky I am to call him mine. My lover, my beacon of hope, my fragile flower, my salvation.
My Panda.